Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Back Up Plans & Other Dream Deferments

I just realized that I have invested so much of my life in academia and education because, surely that will ensure my success as a human being (pardon the sarcasm)!!

I went to college for four years and graduated. I even started an online Master's program that I quit after successfully passing the first class. Now I'm trying to take advantage of the free Loyola University Law degree that I could get. I have been institutionalized!!! Oh no!

Now I act like I can't function without going to somebody's school or something. My dream was to be a songwriter/singer. I write plenty songs. I have a whole book full. I overflow with creativity, but I guess I don't believe in myself. (How many people you know can actually admit that!)

I don't give myself a chance. I guess it has a little something to do with people shooting down my young heart and aspirations, or just not supporting them. I realize that at some point I must grow up and choose my response-ability, and not allow the past to dictate my future.

I honestly did want to go to law school for quite some time. I guess that came about when I "decided" to give up on my dreams and instead help others achieve theirs by becoming an entertainment lawyer of some sort.

You know...contract law, copyrights, intellectual property, etc. It's not a bad thing to do, but, it should not be my main focus. Law school is always going to be there, and so will music, but the industry is not warm & friendly to people of a certain age group. I don't know. I guess I'll try the law thing, even though, formal education was supposed to only be the backup plan.

2 comments:

BLESSD1 said...

I tell no lies...I think (and as you know, my opinion is worth less than a grain of salt anyway, so I give it) you should go to law school. I understand that you're trying to make it in the music industry as a singer, and I KNOW that you have beaucoup talent, but you also are very aware of the competition, as well as the dog-eat-dog mentalitly of many folks in the industry. Get that law degree, and then make your music the way you want to make it, at your leisure...without the added pressure of using it as a vehicle to pay your bills. Just my thoughts....

Kyla said...

The Rationale is good, great even. But it is also what has led me to put music on the back burner time & time again. If I never invest in music, I will never have the chance to let it pay me!

Maybe I should just sing at church,and write songs for famous people like Neyo- and then make it "big" after I get the law degree.

Your opinionated wisdom is never taken for granted Bro!